garbage to gorgeous

today started out terrible. actually, it was last night when it all started. kids are feeling well and not sleeping well. four year old sometimes has really bad night terrors. at least i guess that is what you'd call it. it is freaky.
so bad night last night. morning started out exhausting. both kids whining non stop and the baby wanting to be held constantly. feeling like i can't get anything accomplished and taking forever to just get ready so we can get out of the house. once we got out it was much better. the sun was shining and we had plans in town. we did a few things and then went to have milkshakes and fries. krinkle fries, of course. and chocolate milkshakes with real banana. yum. that made things a little better right there:) then we played outside in the little kid area. i suppose "happy" burger did its job today:) i generally am appauled at the smiling happy faces everywhere and terribly cheesy decor, but it was okay today. okay, not really. i just didn't seem to notice.

oh, did i mention that during the "garbage" part of the day i was having a meltdown? the day was just so terribly difficult from the moment i woke up. did i ever even sleep? yeah, i know i did, but it just doesn't even feel like it. it feels like i was up all night. even though i only got up a few times during the night. a few times is plenty. especially when they are a "dramatic" few times.

i decided to go in my room (somehow i managed to "disappear" without anyone noticing and without anyone following me:) then i just sat there and then laid there and then prayed and cried. then i read something that was encouraging to me. actually a few things that were encouraging to me. funny how that happens. a few emails that were sent really encouraged me. and then something from a devotional. and then praying. more like just crying out for help:) God knows exactly what we need when we need it.
He speaks to us words that no one else can. He fills us with strength and cannot be found anywhere else. He uplifts us and blesses us in a way that man cannot. sure He uses people and people often have much to give us. words we need to hear or just a listening ear. people are used by God every day to bless us and help us in our time of need. but sometimes your heart and soul are in a place where only God can reach you. and if you let Him He will do the reaching. and then He will do the grabbing. of your heart and soul and He won't let go. He will lift you up when you are weak. He will take your garbage and make it gorgeous.