Life, Life, and all its' strife.
What do you do when you don't know
what to do?
You scream, you yell,
You cuss like hell.
And then you trust Jesus.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
About Me
Well, since this is MY blog, then I figure I can make it all about me:) Okay, not really. That is not my intention at all. But today I will just let you know a little bit about myself because I don't feel like discussing any of the major issues that are on my mind right now. So here is my more superficial post:)
1- I don't like superficial people. Sometimes I think I may appear to be one of those people, but I am not. I am fairly private, but I will also talk about pretty much anything.
2- I like coffee (who doesn't) But I am currently working my way down to only drinking decaf. It is all in the mind for me. I don't need caffeine, it doesn't do a whole for me anyway. Plus it is not my "drug of choice." Shopping is.
3- I like shopping. I mean I love shopping. Not as much as I used to, but still a lot.
I like bargain shopping, I am pretty cheap when it comes to most things and I am proud of it. Especially when people compliment me and they have no idea what I steal I got. Oh wait, they usually do because I tell them. I can't keep it inside!
4- I am an over protector and proud of it. My dad "lovingly" passed it on to me:)
I used to think he was way too protective and now I see that I am just like him in this area. Like when I am in public I feel like I have to keep an eye on other peoples' children. I am also the "private investigator" and keep an eye out for any "suspicious" behavior. I am pretty sure that I don't know anyone else quite like me. And that is okay. I am not in control of everything. But I suppose I will try to be:)
5- I like funny. I like funny shows on t.v., not stupid ones, just funny ones. I do feel like they are few and far between though. I also like to "be funny." And if someone doesn't really "get" me then I don't like them. Just kidding. Sort of:) My daughter makes me laugh. I say it is because she gets her wonderful sense of humor from me:) She keeps me laughing all day and I love it so much!
6- I like sweets. A little too much. But I am picky about what I like and what I'll eat. It has to be good. In most cased I don't eat birthday cake. Especially store bought ones. No offense to anyone, but I personally think that most times they are totally disgusting. If I don't have cake at a party people will comment and say," Wow, you're good, watching your wait and all." Nope, that's really not it at all. If I like it, I'll eat it, believe me. It's just that I don't like it. I don't eat to make others happy:)
7- I research almost everything these days. With my fabulous computer skills:) I can find out anything and everything. And that is pretty much what I do. From good deals, to finding felons in my area. From info on food to checking out houses in places I look forward to living in someday.
8- I am a chameleon. And I hope this is how you spell it. What I mean by this is that I adapt to wherever I live. Oh and I have lived! Lots of places. I like to adapt to where I live. It is fun. I usually adapt my style in one sense or another to fit where I am living. Like what I wear and what my house looks like. I like to change it up so I don't get bored. Plus I feel like I am really embracing the place where I live.
9- I love design and decorating. I find that when I am out (anywhere) I am looking at things in a different way than perhaps some people. I admire how things are built, the way things are put together, the uniqueness of certain areas. I like to pick apart things and see how they could be better. With my help of course:)
I see the beauty in the less attractive. People, houses, etc. And how they could stand out and live up to their full potential.
I love that sort of challenge.
10- Sort of a continuation of the previous one...I am creative and somewhat artistic.
I tell the photographer what I want and ignore her comment when she says my idea won't work. And then "poof" it looks amazing. I think I am creative. I use "junk" or ordinary things and make them into decor or something fabulous;) I like painting and crafts. I am fairly crafty but I can't really paint worth anything. I like photography although I don't know much, I usually think I do:)
I love music. I like to sing, although I am VERY mediocre. I like to write music too. Okay, only the words, not usually the actual music. My husband can do that.
I like to write. Hence the blog.
11- As you may be able to tell from the previous post. I think highly of myself in particular areas:) But I am just telling it like it is...hee hee.
I don't think highly of myself in all areas so I am pretty sure I am not a complete jerk. There is a difference between unhealthy pride and embracing your strengths and talents. I hope I live out the latter.
12- I am an entrepener. Even though I can't spell it. I have always wanted to start a business. Ever since I was a kid it has been a dream. It has ranged from having a resterant (which I guess I can't spell either.) To being an interior designer to having a flower shop. I am sure there have been more. I just can't keep up with myself and all of my "fabulous" ideas:0
13- I like white. White is fresh. White makes me feel clean and crisp and happy. It makes me think of the beach and houses in fancy magazines that look amazing. White is classic. White sheets, white towels, white curtains, white cabneits, you get the point.
14- I am a worrier. I also get this from my dad...and my grandma, and who knows who else. Of course I try not to and I say verses and I pray and I try to "chill" and not freak out, but it is oh so hard. Sometimes I say I have to worry, I can't help it. But I suppose I can. It is just "way" harder than I'd like it to be!
15- I have a lot of opinions. Even though I may not seem like I do. I do. I don't have time to go into them!
16- Most days I don't wear make up. Oh wait, here is one of my opinions. Wouldn't it be grand if no one wore make up? I think so. We would just be ourselves. You probably think, "oh gross, we would look terrible!' But that is only because we can't imagine it because our culture has made it what it is today. We are into covering ourselves up so much. There are actually people in this world that look like two completely different people. When they wake up and then when they leave the house. I am not one of these people. I think I pretty much look the same all the time. Sometimes a little better, sometimes a little worse, but never really shockingly different. Okay, so I know for POSITIVE that the world would NEVER go in this direction because we are all about being "perfect." So in that case, I am not planning on being "ugly" (as our culture might think.) I will only do "ugly" most days. But on those "special" days I will be like everyone else:)
p.S. I definitely appreciate how make up enhances our natural beauty though. So I am just full of contradictions here!
17- I only need about 2-3 really good friends. I don't think I can handle too many more. It's not that I don't want more. It's just that having close friends takes a lot of effort...for me any way. I like to have frequent "playdates" with them and our children. I like to talk to them and tell them everything. Or at least a lot of stuff. I think I am a pretty good listener and I like my friends to be too. It show that they care when they pay attention or remember things. I like getting to know people though, I am enjoying park playdates recently and I like chatting with other moms when I am out or when I am church. I just like to have less superficial conversations and more deep ones. Although I always love a good chat about shopping, design and clothes:)
18- I am really anal about certain things and other things I could really care less about. I like my silverware drawer to be in a certain order. I also don't like stuff to be on most of my counter tops, although there is usually one where all the crap is collected. And although it drives me crazy, it rarely gets cleaned off.
Other things I am not so particular about. Sometimes I just throw the clothes in the drawer instead of folding them. I fold certain things, but others are fine just to be thrown:)
I don't like my curtains or blinds closed during the day time. It makes me crazy. I do however need them to be closed at night.
I also don't like T.V. watching during the day time. I think it is a waste of time. Especially on beautiful days. HOWEVER, since becoming a mom I have been MUCH LESS anal about this one. The girls watch T.V. during the day and I occasionally watch something while eating lunch during their nap time. I especially HATE when people have the T.V. on ALL day long.
19- I don't like when people are inpatient in public. Like at the store. Yes, we are all in a hurry. Yes, we all someplace to be. We are all in a hurry all the time these days. So stop stomping your foot and huffing and puffing and giving the cashiers dirty looks. It doesn't make the time go by any faster.
20- I am not a very affectionate person. If I know someone is "hugger" then I will hug them if they hug me first. But I don't hug most of my friends.
I was never super affectionate with my family growing up. Although I think they still knew that I loved them:) I am very affectionate with my kids and my husband though. I suppose that is pretty normal though. I think that I am a loving person though. Although outwardly I may not show it as much. I still care a lot.
Well, I was just going to do a "top 10" or something like that but I kind of got carried away.
Oh yes...one more thing. I totally hate when people don't spell correctly and yet I have many misspellings in this blog! Go figure.
1- I don't like superficial people. Sometimes I think I may appear to be one of those people, but I am not. I am fairly private, but I will also talk about pretty much anything.
2- I like coffee (who doesn't) But I am currently working my way down to only drinking decaf. It is all in the mind for me. I don't need caffeine, it doesn't do a whole for me anyway. Plus it is not my "drug of choice." Shopping is.
3- I like shopping. I mean I love shopping. Not as much as I used to, but still a lot.
I like bargain shopping, I am pretty cheap when it comes to most things and I am proud of it. Especially when people compliment me and they have no idea what I steal I got. Oh wait, they usually do because I tell them. I can't keep it inside!
4- I am an over protector and proud of it. My dad "lovingly" passed it on to me:)
I used to think he was way too protective and now I see that I am just like him in this area. Like when I am in public I feel like I have to keep an eye on other peoples' children. I am also the "private investigator" and keep an eye out for any "suspicious" behavior. I am pretty sure that I don't know anyone else quite like me. And that is okay. I am not in control of everything. But I suppose I will try to be:)
5- I like funny. I like funny shows on t.v., not stupid ones, just funny ones. I do feel like they are few and far between though. I also like to "be funny." And if someone doesn't really "get" me then I don't like them. Just kidding. Sort of:) My daughter makes me laugh. I say it is because she gets her wonderful sense of humor from me:) She keeps me laughing all day and I love it so much!
6- I like sweets. A little too much. But I am picky about what I like and what I'll eat. It has to be good. In most cased I don't eat birthday cake. Especially store bought ones. No offense to anyone, but I personally think that most times they are totally disgusting. If I don't have cake at a party people will comment and say," Wow, you're good, watching your wait and all." Nope, that's really not it at all. If I like it, I'll eat it, believe me. It's just that I don't like it. I don't eat to make others happy:)
7- I research almost everything these days. With my fabulous computer skills:) I can find out anything and everything. And that is pretty much what I do. From good deals, to finding felons in my area. From info on food to checking out houses in places I look forward to living in someday.
8- I am a chameleon. And I hope this is how you spell it. What I mean by this is that I adapt to wherever I live. Oh and I have lived! Lots of places. I like to adapt to where I live. It is fun. I usually adapt my style in one sense or another to fit where I am living. Like what I wear and what my house looks like. I like to change it up so I don't get bored. Plus I feel like I am really embracing the place where I live.
9- I love design and decorating. I find that when I am out (anywhere) I am looking at things in a different way than perhaps some people. I admire how things are built, the way things are put together, the uniqueness of certain areas. I like to pick apart things and see how they could be better. With my help of course:)
I see the beauty in the less attractive. People, houses, etc. And how they could stand out and live up to their full potential.
I love that sort of challenge.
10- Sort of a continuation of the previous one...I am creative and somewhat artistic.
I tell the photographer what I want and ignore her comment when she says my idea won't work. And then "poof" it looks amazing. I think I am creative. I use "junk" or ordinary things and make them into decor or something fabulous;) I like painting and crafts. I am fairly crafty but I can't really paint worth anything. I like photography although I don't know much, I usually think I do:)
I love music. I like to sing, although I am VERY mediocre. I like to write music too. Okay, only the words, not usually the actual music. My husband can do that.
I like to write. Hence the blog.
11- As you may be able to tell from the previous post. I think highly of myself in particular areas:) But I am just telling it like it is...hee hee.
I don't think highly of myself in all areas so I am pretty sure I am not a complete jerk. There is a difference between unhealthy pride and embracing your strengths and talents. I hope I live out the latter.
12- I am an entrepener. Even though I can't spell it. I have always wanted to start a business. Ever since I was a kid it has been a dream. It has ranged from having a resterant (which I guess I can't spell either.) To being an interior designer to having a flower shop. I am sure there have been more. I just can't keep up with myself and all of my "fabulous" ideas:0
13- I like white. White is fresh. White makes me feel clean and crisp and happy. It makes me think of the beach and houses in fancy magazines that look amazing. White is classic. White sheets, white towels, white curtains, white cabneits, you get the point.
14- I am a worrier. I also get this from my dad...and my grandma, and who knows who else. Of course I try not to and I say verses and I pray and I try to "chill" and not freak out, but it is oh so hard. Sometimes I say I have to worry, I can't help it. But I suppose I can. It is just "way" harder than I'd like it to be!
15- I have a lot of opinions. Even though I may not seem like I do. I do. I don't have time to go into them!
16- Most days I don't wear make up. Oh wait, here is one of my opinions. Wouldn't it be grand if no one wore make up? I think so. We would just be ourselves. You probably think, "oh gross, we would look terrible!' But that is only because we can't imagine it because our culture has made it what it is today. We are into covering ourselves up so much. There are actually people in this world that look like two completely different people. When they wake up and then when they leave the house. I am not one of these people. I think I pretty much look the same all the time. Sometimes a little better, sometimes a little worse, but never really shockingly different. Okay, so I know for POSITIVE that the world would NEVER go in this direction because we are all about being "perfect." So in that case, I am not planning on being "ugly" (as our culture might think.) I will only do "ugly" most days. But on those "special" days I will be like everyone else:)
p.S. I definitely appreciate how make up enhances our natural beauty though. So I am just full of contradictions here!
17- I only need about 2-3 really good friends. I don't think I can handle too many more. It's not that I don't want more. It's just that having close friends takes a lot of effort...for me any way. I like to have frequent "playdates" with them and our children. I like to talk to them and tell them everything. Or at least a lot of stuff. I think I am a pretty good listener and I like my friends to be too. It show that they care when they pay attention or remember things. I like getting to know people though, I am enjoying park playdates recently and I like chatting with other moms when I am out or when I am church. I just like to have less superficial conversations and more deep ones. Although I always love a good chat about shopping, design and clothes:)
18- I am really anal about certain things and other things I could really care less about. I like my silverware drawer to be in a certain order. I also don't like stuff to be on most of my counter tops, although there is usually one where all the crap is collected. And although it drives me crazy, it rarely gets cleaned off.
Other things I am not so particular about. Sometimes I just throw the clothes in the drawer instead of folding them. I fold certain things, but others are fine just to be thrown:)
I don't like my curtains or blinds closed during the day time. It makes me crazy. I do however need them to be closed at night.
I also don't like T.V. watching during the day time. I think it is a waste of time. Especially on beautiful days. HOWEVER, since becoming a mom I have been MUCH LESS anal about this one. The girls watch T.V. during the day and I occasionally watch something while eating lunch during their nap time. I especially HATE when people have the T.V. on ALL day long.
19- I don't like when people are inpatient in public. Like at the store. Yes, we are all in a hurry. Yes, we all someplace to be. We are all in a hurry all the time these days. So stop stomping your foot and huffing and puffing and giving the cashiers dirty looks. It doesn't make the time go by any faster.
20- I am not a very affectionate person. If I know someone is "hugger" then I will hug them if they hug me first. But I don't hug most of my friends.
I was never super affectionate with my family growing up. Although I think they still knew that I loved them:) I am very affectionate with my kids and my husband though. I suppose that is pretty normal though. I think that I am a loving person though. Although outwardly I may not show it as much. I still care a lot.
Well, I was just going to do a "top 10" or something like that but I kind of got carried away.
Oh yes...one more thing. I totally hate when people don't spell correctly and yet I have many misspellings in this blog! Go figure.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Oh Procrastination...
This week it has been BEAUTIFUL! Saturday we went swimming. Sunday after church we had a picnic and then went swimming again. Monday we were at the park and today we were at the park again. It is windy today, but still beautiful.
Summer days lure me outside. They call me to come and play. To sit in the sun. To play at the park. To go swimming. To go for a walk. Just to be outside and soak up the sun.
Now that is has FINALLY become summer I worry that I may be lured outside too much. For some reason now that I have two kids I seem to be going out more than when I had one. I think when I had one it was easier to stay home and do stuff around the house and there was more break time to just hang out. Not a lot, but some.
Maybe now that I have two I realize that I won't really be getting much done anyway so I might as well go out and do something fun!
I don't know if anything around my house will ever get accomplished this summer. It has only been 3 or so days of beautiful weather and my house is already a disaster because I have already let it go to "pot."
But I suppose I shouldn't blame it merely on the weather. I tend to do this sort of thing any way. It always seems to be a mess no matter how much picking up I do. I guess it is just worse during the summer months.
Well, I suppose I will just enjoy the weather and try not to stress too much about the house and all of its' chores. Although I may be folding the mound of laundry and doing the dishes right after I am done writing...wait, did I hear something? Oh, it was procrastination whispering in my ear. He said I could just wait until tomorrow. Or even the next day if I want to:)
Summer days lure me outside. They call me to come and play. To sit in the sun. To play at the park. To go swimming. To go for a walk. Just to be outside and soak up the sun.
Now that is has FINALLY become summer I worry that I may be lured outside too much. For some reason now that I have two kids I seem to be going out more than when I had one. I think when I had one it was easier to stay home and do stuff around the house and there was more break time to just hang out. Not a lot, but some.
Maybe now that I have two I realize that I won't really be getting much done anyway so I might as well go out and do something fun!
I don't know if anything around my house will ever get accomplished this summer. It has only been 3 or so days of beautiful weather and my house is already a disaster because I have already let it go to "pot."
But I suppose I shouldn't blame it merely on the weather. I tend to do this sort of thing any way. It always seems to be a mess no matter how much picking up I do. I guess it is just worse during the summer months.
Well, I suppose I will just enjoy the weather and try not to stress too much about the house and all of its' chores. Although I may be folding the mound of laundry and doing the dishes right after I am done writing...wait, did I hear something? Oh, it was procrastination whispering in my ear. He said I could just wait until tomorrow. Or even the next day if I want to:)
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
20 minutes
Tomorrow I am having an MRI. I am not excited about it by any means, although I am relived...but still a little worried too. I hit my head about a week ago and have been feeling worse since then. I just want to make sure I don't have brain damage or anything:) No, seriously.
Anyway, I was thinking about the "being in a confined space part of it" and how I am not excited about it. I remember the last time I had one, a few years ago, I just kept repeating the same phrase over and over in my head. Something about the Lord protecting me. It definitely helped and I will most likely be doing the same thing tomorrow.
So, back to the confined space part. They said it would take about 20 minutes. 20 minutes? Wow, that seems like a long time to lay still. At least for a stay at home mom who pretty much never sits down. Not even to eat. I live my life standing up. Except in the morning when I first get up. I try to sit for as long as I possibly can...although that is usually only for a few minutes. And then when I am at the computer. And then when I go to the bathroom....okay, sorry, I've gone too far.
So, I've decided to look at it as a little "vacay." 20 minutes of being alone, 20 minutes of peace and quiet, 20 minutes of time to think or pray or whatever, 20 minutes to rest my mind and body.
So, I leave you with this. Look at the things in your life differently. The things that you are not excited about or the mundane daily tasks, the things that bring you worry. Look at them in a different light. Maybe somehow, some way you can find some joy in them. Maybe you will even enjoy them. Maybe it will feel like a "vacay", maybe not. But it's worth a try.
P.S. I won't be writing any new posts tomorrow. I'll be on vacation;)
Anyway, I was thinking about the "being in a confined space part of it" and how I am not excited about it. I remember the last time I had one, a few years ago, I just kept repeating the same phrase over and over in my head. Something about the Lord protecting me. It definitely helped and I will most likely be doing the same thing tomorrow.
So, back to the confined space part. They said it would take about 20 minutes. 20 minutes? Wow, that seems like a long time to lay still. At least for a stay at home mom who pretty much never sits down. Not even to eat. I live my life standing up. Except in the morning when I first get up. I try to sit for as long as I possibly can...although that is usually only for a few minutes. And then when I am at the computer. And then when I go to the bathroom....okay, sorry, I've gone too far.
So, I've decided to look at it as a little "vacay." 20 minutes of being alone, 20 minutes of peace and quiet, 20 minutes of time to think or pray or whatever, 20 minutes to rest my mind and body.
So, I leave you with this. Look at the things in your life differently. The things that you are not excited about or the mundane daily tasks, the things that bring you worry. Look at them in a different light. Maybe somehow, some way you can find some joy in them. Maybe you will even enjoy them. Maybe it will feel like a "vacay", maybe not. But it's worth a try.
P.S. I won't be writing any new posts tomorrow. I'll be on vacation;)
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